I don't talk about it a lot but I have 17 siblings, 15 of them being my fathers children. I am the youngest my other siblings ages ranging from 16- being in their 40's. My relationships' with the ones closest to my age has been rocky from the jump. because I spent the most time with my father I receive plenty of backhanded comments about him just being "my father". These comments do not feel good as I endured the madness that my father was involved with with him being my primary care giver throughout the week. I say that they should be happy that they did not have to experience the things that I had went through being in his presence. My moms eldest child lives in California so we do not talk, my father also caused a rift between me and my mothers middle child because of the pain he exacted onto him. I am thankful not to be in communication with some of my fathers family as they are not the brightest people, but I am also thankful to be shown that blood is not always thicker than water and friends can be more like family than your close relatives. I have found my own way and do not let longing for a relationship with them rule my life any longer.
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